Day 1 done

First day went rather well. Only had one minor set back when I got home. My pack of cigarettes were still sitting on the counter. From experience I know that if the cravings get bad enough I will go hunting through the trash for the pack or try to find one that isn't completely ripped up that I can get a few drags off of. Gross I know but an addict is an addict it doesn't matter what the drug of choice is, the addiction still controls you, or as the woman running the class says its your primitive brain doing the controling, you have to trick it.

Needless to say I ended up grabbing one. It went well though, I ended up having more self control then I usually do, more strength of will. I took a few drags and then threw it in the fire pit. An hour later I grabbed another one and did the same thing.

My husband was in charge of removing them from the house. Its better if someone else does it for me. He didn't see the pack yesterday morning so thought I took care of them. Today I will not have the same issue when I get home. The pack has been removed from the house by my husband.

I will have 2 tests to my resolve coming up soon. One of which I am trying to decided if its worth it. Tomorrow night my husband and I are going to go to dinner after work as a celebratory dinner that the summer is over. Summer was very busy and stressful for both of us. My boss had given me a $150 gift certificate to a very nice Italian restaurant for my 5year anniversary with the company at the beginning of the summer and we decided to save it and use it when the summer was over. Needless to say a bottle of nice red wine will be involved. But the strain on me is worth it. This dinner is something we both need. The second one that I have been debating about is a concert on Monday. It is to see Lilly Allen one of my favorite artists who is from the UK. She doesn't make it over to our neck of the woods often, I bought tickets to see her back in June. I am also going with one of my best girl friends who is a smoker and I am sure we will be drinking. Not sure that its worth it, I still have a few days to decide though. I also am in the free and clear after the Monday (the 6th) I have no other pre scheduled events that can spell trouble and can avoid them going forward. I had considered waiting until the 7th to quit but my throat is all kinds of screwed up and I'm starting to have a smokers cough so I decided that even if I stumble a little in the first week waiting any longer was not a good idea.